I wonder how many are in the same boat as me.
Last year my youngest started school. I had been working part time over many years whilst my children were young. I used to work at quite a high level but over the years whilst having my children my responsibilities dwindled away to be mainly very basic and mundane.
Since my youngest went to school I've increased my hours and will shortly be full time again, but I do not work for very good employers as the company was overtaken a few years ago and it is quite stressful. I don't have any skills or confidence to get another job. I've been in this one the majority of my working life.
Without sounding like I've got my violin out, for various reasons that I won't explain, I am incredibly depressed at the moment and I think it ties in with my children both being at school now. I gave up most things to be a mum, some of which were my choice, some which weren't, but I now find Myself here and it feels like everything's over. I don't have any family I am close to, no friends, no career etc. we would love to move home and I know that would help busy my mind but every offer we put in is rejected in this crazy market and we're getting no where.
I don't think I'm asking for advice as everything one could suggest I would have a reason why it's not possible - I am generally quite pro active! But I just wondered if any others find themselves here? I'm very lonely and before anyone suggests trying to make friends etc, I have, numerous times, I just don't think it's meant to be for me.
I absolutely know there are AWFUL things going on in the world at the moment and that is a reason why I am so frustrated at myself, but I just can't help but feel this way.
Please be kind x