To think I am suffering with something but not sure what

[Newjourney2894]

Hi all, just wanted some advice on what could possibly be wrong with me? I have a DP, two children and a puppy and I just get so highly strung when I am at home with everyone around. The kids when they are at home with me make so much noise and cause so much mayhem that I just feel my blood boiling all the time.. I’ve never done anything like lashed out or anything but I end up having to leave a room or I swear under my breath or out loud at them & sometimes I know it is justified based on the situation but sometimes it is something really small scale and by the end of the day I just feel like screaming and banging my head against a wall or leaving altogether.

The other thing is our new puppy whenever he is howling in his crate I just feel my stress levels and blood levels rising. I just hate being at home and my DP doesn’t understand because even though he works at home 5 days a week.. he doesn’t understand i have been on maternity leave back to back since 2018 to 2020 pretty much and I returned to work during covid because DP lost his job and I still worked full time over 4 days and watch the children on a Wednesday, our son has been in our bed every night since November 2021.

We are in the process of a house move and we hate where we live now, cannot stand the streets around us and don’t want to take our children out and about in it and that might be affecting the cabin fever/suffocating feeling but I don’t know how to at least deal with it.

I even spoke to a counsellor in August 2021 and they helped me through some things but I still feel anger so quickly when a stressful situation arises.

AIBU to think something is wrong with me or does this sound common?

Sounds like you're depressed. You're juggling a lot of balls at the moment. As for the puppy in the crate, that pup probably senses there's something wrong. Please don't take your frustration out on it it's probably as fed up as you are hence the howling. Rehome the puppy it's not fair on both of you.

Anger and irritation are symptoms of anxiety and from you've written, I'd suggest that this is what you're actually experiencing.

Might be worth having a chat with your gp?

For me, realising that the anger/irritation I felt was a stress response helped in itself because I became more aware of how I was feeling and able to take steps to mitigate.

@Ludo19 I’m not going to rehome the dog as our family absolutely adore him and he is hardly ever in the crate, he is a very happy puppy. This evening is particularly bad as we were trying to eat dinner and he kept jumping up at our trays so we put him in his crate & he never whines like he was doing

Could be anxiety, depression or hormones? Moving house is really stressful - make sure you get some time for yourself too, a walk or some Pilates or swimming helps me keep my anxiety down.