Cut a long story short. I have been seeing this guy for just over 2 years. I fell pregnant in and was Due any day now, he was angry to begin with told me to get rid etc but eventually told me he'd be there for me when I said I was keeping baby. He never attended any scans etc even found out sex of baby for his sake and he was happy to be having a boy as he already has a DD. He didn't support me throughout my pregnancy and played a backseat role and didn't speak much about it, I questioned several times when I'd meet his family or if he'd told them we was expecting as he can't just land a baby on them. & it was very immature of him to think that this was acceptable ( we are both 26 )
Fast forward, I gave birth to my beautiful son at 36 weeks on 20th jan, he was stillborn. He wasn't there at the birth and didn't come and see his son on the day or the days after that I went to visit him in the hospital to say final goodbyes. I have been besides myself hurt angry at the world how cruel it can be for good people for this to happen. He hasn't done nothing. Infact he just says he is sorry. That is it. He isn't there for me when I'm struggling and finding everyday things so hard right now I'm screaming suffocating crying constantly it's horrific I would never wish this pain on anybody.
I feel so angry and like i want to message his family to inform them that we had a son together, HIS CHILD and not one person knows. Am I being out of order? I don't want to be with him because of his actions regarding this whole subject. For a man who I love to not be there for me at the worst time of my life I can never forgive him for that.