I know im being totally unreasonable but how do i stop

[iknowitssilly]

Ive name changed for this as its rather embarrassing.

I have 3DCs, happily married and generally a happy and very rational person.

Ive got an issue which is progressively getting worse, I cannot sleep without my DH at home.

DH goes out maybe a few times a month socializing which im absolutely fine with but im now becoming terrified when i go to bed, i listen for noises, look out for ghosts ( i dont even bloody believe in them), imagine hearing things.

I lie in bed with the covers over my ears, the hall light on but still im absolutely terrified.

I cant pinpoint when this started happening and i also know that nothing has happened to cause this.

I try and walk myself back in my head, try and rationalize and reason with myself but it doesnt work.

Im looking for some tips on anything thats helped others deal with this

I used to be like this in our old flat, pre kids - I hated being alone there after dark. I remember one night I was heavily pregnant and it was Christmas party day, he didn't get back til 3am and I hadnt slept by then. It was weird because I lived on my own in dodgy flats in dodgy areas of London for a good couple of years before that flat and was ok. The worst was my mum and dad's creepy old cottage, I remember once when I was around 19/20 I was left in charge of my 16 and 11 year old siblings, they were fine but I was terrified, I think that's what set me off for life!

I am actually a lot better now as even though we're in a house now it's semi detached and we're very close to (and friendly) with neighbours both sides so I know they'd hear if we screamed. And I think having the kids for company is better for me than being alone. But I think it's one of those things you just need to get used to by doing it a few times (when you can't avoid it!) You're not the only one though, and it's not irrational!

ahhhh its so good to hear im not alone!!