I’m studying a degree for a vocation which will have a lot of responsibility in the final job (eg a degree like medicine, dentistry, law etc which will lead to a job with a lot of responsibility for other people’s health and well-being). It’s my dream job (cliche I know!) but I seriously love the idea of helping people and I love all things sciencey and anatomy.
I absolutely LOVE the course, I love the job, I really enjoy the work and I’m getting As in my exams and coursework….but I’m suddenly SO worried about graduating and doing the job- I’m seriously dreading it now. I’m worried that I’ll make a mistake. Or let people down. Or not be good enough. It’s been drilled into us at uni how big an impact we can have on improving health and well-being for patients and I think I’m just suddenly feeling so nervous now. I got good feedback on my practicals and exams and got some academic awards for my results (I didn’t put this to brag, I just put it to explain I’ve not been bunking off my classes). I absolutely love the job I’m studying for and my lecturers said I’ve got the clinical knowledge and ability, but I really don’t think I do anymore. I’ve read so many stories about healthcare practitioners missing things with dreadful consequences. I’ve always given 100% to everything and I’ll always give every patient my complete focus and attention, but I’m so worried it’s not enough and I can’t do it. I see all my friends growing in confidence with every lecture and practical we do, but I feel like I’m getting more and more certain that I’m not good enough for this job.
I’ve always been a perfectionist and I understand things can’t always be perfect, but I’m worried I won’t be good enough for this job or that I’ll make mistakes and be rubbish at it. Or im worried that I’ll come home everynight overthinking the days events and worrying I made a mistake.
Basically im worried about everything
I love this job and I want to do it well and help people, but I’m too worried of making mistakes to do it now.
Has anyone else ever felt like this about their dream job?