It's a long story and not a common one in my life- I have never fallen out with friends before
An ex best friend who stopped talking to me entirely - there's a long history here- she is a narcissist and has mental health issues.
We were friends until my life imploded and I became unwell myself (pretty much recovered now) Her rage at me reached a peak when she shouted at me in my own home for 30 minutes for not being excited enough about her new boyfriend of 2 weeks - in the week where I was dealing with an unexpected break up of my LTR and a recent family suicide. I just felt entirely bullied by her. When she realised she had gone too far as I stopped contact, there were 5 months of her recruiting mutual friends to mediate and then eventually giving up. So it's been quiet apart from she will still do things to upset - recent things have been giving me a dirty and damaged birthday present and a text with a picture of her getting engaged. She has recently recruited another friend who has now stopped talking to me. I just feel totally bullied. I have had a year of quiet recovery- I have a very good friend and a lovely sibling who have really helped- I have therapy and I am really doing well. I just feel so fragile about this though- I feel embarassed as I am way too old to have 'friendship issues' I feel sad, I feel disrespected . I feel like even though I have kept myself to myself and been totally quiet, they won't just leave me alone- they keep needling with the present, the text- it's all to remind me they don't like me. We all work together although it is a very big place and I may see them only in passing (literally walking past) once or twice a week. I am not a person who can't accept their part in things, or won't accept blame but in this situation I really didn't do anything and I am so so hurt. How do I shrug it off? How can I stop it worrying me or playing on my mind? Anyone had anything similar?