To go back to work?

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Hi all,

I'm going to try and make a long story as short as possible I have posted on here previously but name changed as putting more details down -

I've always struggled with my MH and think I may have with bipolar or BPD - leaning towards BPD but have managed to live a semi normal life.

I've been working for three years and last year I had a baby via c section due to previous sexual trauma, a month later my wonderful dad died and my mum has learning difficulties and needed caring for (and then on top of that her landlord said she had to move out of the home she had lived in for 20 years) and the my granddad (mums dad died) and then I went back to work and ended up on the sick.

I went back at the beginning of December and handed my notice in as I couldn't handle it along with everything else that was going on and actually tried to end my life, ended up under the home treatment team and acute therapy service team for a six day intense therapy course - I have now been referred for a psychiatrist review.

The issue is I've been working for the last ten years and I can't deal with not having any money, I claim benefits and my husband works but I want to be able to provide the best for my little child so I started applying for jobs.

I applied for quite a few as thought I wouldn't really get anything and now I have seven interviews this week and I'm doubting myself.

Like I appreciate I need to take time to get myself better but sitting at home isn't doing me any good either.

I'm not entirely sure what I'm asking, just hoping for some words of encouragement.

Actually this post is a bit all over the place, I'm sorry. I just don't know what to do

Having seven interviews is great and shows you are still marketable. I would look to see if any of them are part time - hopefully with room to expand hours later and look for a really supportive employer. Doing something is better than nothing but doing too much too soon would be counterproductive.

Wow congratulations on the interviews. I'm sorry you've had such a tough time of late, I hope the worst is behind you.

With regards to whether you should be working, only you can say what will make you feel better. Work maybe a good distraction, but equally, I'd imagine you're still a little fragile. Starting a new job can be stressful.

I know it's tough losing salary. If you can afford to, would you consider volunteering? It may mean you have some of the benefits of working (socialising, pursuing your interests, adult company, distraction) but also less pressure and flexibility around your other commitments.

Well, I was offered the job today so good news I can cancel the five others haha hopefully I'm ready. Thank you for replying :)

(I'm posting here because I can't tell my dad and just wanted to tell someone)

Congratulations! You definitely still have it in you. Hopefully this is a great new start for you and your dad would be proud of you.

Congratulations on your job offer beginning.

Do you have a CPN or another support in the mental health team? Have a chat with them before making any plans, they can help you do it in a managed way, so you don't relapse.