Could do with some advice.
STBEXH has said he wants our 10 month old infant 3 days a week. I agreed. I acknowledge the fact that he is our childs dad and I support that. Despite me doing everything alone including pregnancy and birth and despite all the shit he put me through, I know i will have to share our child.
The main thing that is eating me up inside is the thought of my child being with Ex's narcisitic mother in-law. I always heard of the word narcisit and never really knew exactly what it meant until i met her.
She is the most negative and toxic person i have ever met and many others agree. She played a HUGE part in this divorce. Knowing she will be around my child almost every time in those 3 days makes me feel really uneasy. I dont trust her. Ex is a coward and doesnt say anything to his mum because then she starts emotionally blackmailing him and would hit herself, cry, leave the house etc when things dont go her way.
Shes the type of toxic who told her own children to lie in court so that her ex doesnt get any visitation rights. Shes the type of toxic who till this day 25+ years since her divorce goes out of her way to chat shit about her ex to her now grown children. Shes the type of toxic who refused to see her grandchild because she didnt want to see me after i intiitated the divorce and expected ex to bring her the newborn without my presence. The type of toxic who told ex not to pay child maintenence out of spite (which btw is £150 a month).
I dont know what kind of games she will play to try get back at me in my life now. I know she will do exactly what she did with her own children, with mine. Thats just how she is. She holds grudges and will go at any level to be petty.
Im scared at loosing control over my child. Im scared about how she will try be petty and make things difficult. I know its easy for her because she fully controls and manipulates Ex who is a few years away from turning 40.
I feel sad and hurt that my child would be around such people. I feel sad that my child would be away from me half the time.
In my mind im looking for excuses to reduce the time like...is 3 days a week too much for such a young infant? Maybe if taken through the courts, they would rule in my favour? I sometimes think like this to make myself feel better.
Sorry for the long post. I just feel really sad.