My nan died 5 years ago. She was the light of my life, and took me in just before she passed away as I was having troubles at home. She was more of a mum to me than my own mother was in many ways and was my best friend. I never fell out with my nan, even in my angst teen days so her death was horrible and still haunts me now. I am still grieving and can't talk about her or look at any pictures of her or even think about her as it is so painful. She was my only nan as my fathers side never saw me.
My mum married recently and his mum is lovely. Probably the only member of my step-family that I like and who is genuine. She doesn't celebrate Christmas (none of them do infact) due to their faith but we still send presents over for them. When we were shopping for cards, I informed my mum I would get my step-grandma one that says 'Someone Special' as i'd feel uncomfortable sending her a 'grandma/nanna' one as I don't see her as that (I call her by her first name) and no one will replace my nan and my mum agreed, so that was that.
Now today my mum has wrapped the gift I bought for step-grandma and on the tag has wrote 'To my special nan, love Lola x'. I'm grateful for her wrapping it, but why she didn't leave it for me, i'm not sure. I am upset at what she wrote...'nan' and when I read it I thought of my real nan and got all upset.
I know i'm being totally petty but i'm feeling so sensitive and emotional (that time of the month, I think!) that I just wanted to write my feelings down, otherwise the slightest thing sends me into a rage or meltdown.
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LolaTheShowgirl · 23/12/2007 13:12
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