Okay so this is a very long story with faults on both sides. Me and my ex started seeing eachother in 2016 and during that time he had cheated on me and I had found he was messaging other women etc. We worked it out and went on to have our first child in 2019, and a few months pass and I realise he's messaging other women again behind my back! I'm unhappy in the relationship so I leave. During the time I left him I had found someone new and was starting to spend more time with him. It doesn't work out and my ex threatens him multiples time while we was seeing how things went. I then notice a change in my ex's behaviour and we try out the relationship again, but I find out I'm pregnant with the other mans baby and I went on the continue that pregnancy and I had another little boy. My ex struggled but he did get a bond with the new baby. However he was still cheating on me and messaging women behind my back the whole time again! I have ended the relationship again because I'm not happy and I realistically don't feel as if I'm love with him anymore. However he's guilt tripping me to try get back with him and he is doing loads with the kids in order to make me believe he's changed and gets upset when he realises I haven't changed my mind. I feel so bloody awful ending the relationship and I feel like I'm an evil monster and his family believe that I am also which hurts as I grew close to his mom