To wonder if there's anyone that gives you a sick feeling when you think about them?

[RainbowBriteUk]

My mother who has been nothing short of toxic to me. She says nasty things about my appearance, house and everything else really. She favours her equally toxic and plain ignorant, homophobic and racist husband. She puts me down to other family members and passes it off as a joke and has done since I can remember. If I ever try and stick up for myself against any of her negative behaviour, I get the blame. I'm quite a free-spirited, creative, chilled person but she doesn't see this, she thinks I should be the same as everyone else. A sheep. Other family don't realise she's this bad. I recently posted about her. She can be nice and loving sometimes but then the nasty comes out and I'm left thinking WTF. It's usually all about her.

When I have a lot of my time on my hands, like now in the Christmas break and weekends I end up thinking about how bad it is and whether it's me being a shit daughter and I swear I get a sick feeling and just end up depressed. Does anyone else feel like this?

Yes, the breeder who sold me a kitten that was suffering from cat flu and then lied about it. She said he could have caught it in my home but I tracked down two other kittens from the same litter and they'd also needed treatment. I spent two years trying to keep him alive and it broke my heart when I lost him.

Yes my sons dad . He’s just a nasty person who treated us really badly but still acts like nothing happened . So glad we split up when we did but when I think about him he makes feel so sick and angry .

Bullying head teacher I worked for a few years ago. He came into a lovely happy school and made it a miserable place to work. Started a campaign to bully out any staff over 35 and employ cheaper newly-qualified teachers. Enjoyed it when teachers left his office weeping after being told how shit they were. (I was one of the two he couldn't make cry so he hated that). Parents started asking questions when nearly all the staff resigned within two years. I left after 18 months of it. We'd all loved working there before. One of my friends later sued for constructive dismissal and won. The person who took over my job quit after one term. I now live about 250 miles away and work in a great school run by human beings. I try not to give him headspace but have heard from someone still local that he's still there, hasn't been able to keep any staff long-term, and now the school's joined an academy trust he has to answer to a female boss which he loathes. Hope I never see him again. Even my extremely peace-loving late DH used to say he'd like to go up to school and punch the guy in the face!

A school bully. A sweet looking girly girl with a limp and a lazy eye. Influential background. Extremely nasty underneath all that sweetness. I was so traumatised by her I am irrationally wary of sweet girly type of women even now.

My in laws

Someone I interviewed made me want to shower afterwards.