To break self isolation (back story please read)

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ok so basically I tested positive for Covid on the 11th so one week ago. I live alone in a one bedroom flat with no garden. None of the people in my block of flats know I've got covid so they wouldn't snitch on me. My parents have been bringing me groceries.
Anyway I have a huge history of mental illness which has required hospitalisation on multiple occasions. Depression, anxiety, panic attacks, suicide attempts, etc. One of the things that really set me off is feeling trapped, so I get really panicky when there's too many people and I can't move, but also as it turns out when I'm stuck in the same room for nearly a week. My mental health has gone so downhill, I have been having multiple panic attacks a day and it's getting really bad. What I really need is to go out for some fresh air- it has been a week since I tested positive and I can't take this anymore. I've been trying to get through to the doctors but they don't have any appointments.

Would I be totally unreasonable to don a mask and go out for a walk tonight? I would go at around 11pm-midnight where there would be less people around, I would even go at 4am if I had to. I wouldn't go near anyone but my god I just need a quick escape from this hellhole. I can't even be that infectious after a whole week surely?

Please tell me if I'm being a selfish cunt I won't go if that's the case but I don't know what to do I can't take this much longer

I'd do it if I were you (at a "safer" time) but my anxiety could never 😂

You should absolutely go out for a walk OP. If you have your mask on and keep a distance from people, it will be fine. Look after yourself 💐

To clarify, the 9yo had food, toys, books, plenty of calls and interactions, and just enjoyed the break from school. She was absolutely fine and even had a cuddle off my husband and a potter round the empty 2m by 2m garden few times when it was needed. We had another family member waiting for a surgery date, so proper self isolation was the only way that could happen, and she knew and supported that. I know I am not the only one asking children to self isolate and if she had needed more contact we would have given it to her and just waited to have the procedure again, but she didn't.

Def do it. My dh did when he was isolating

@Confrontayshunme

Not one thing you have said, makes it any better or more justifiable.

Its fine to do it IMO

Put mask on, wash hands before going.

YANBU, please do it OP.
Your mental health struggles are not on pause just because you have Covid too.
I hope you feel better soon

Do it. I did, around the block twice but I needed it.

@Confrontayshunme

Sounds like you put the decision on your 9 year old. If your husband "gave her a cuddle when it was needed", then it was fairly pointless keeping her confined to her room. She should have had daily access to the garden at a minimum.

@BananaPant I haven't worked for years because my issues I'm also mask exempt but still wear one if i have to go out. If i had covid i would stay home and let my gp know i was struggling. Mental health issues don't mean you can go around spreading covid

How are you doing OP?

Do it. I was a contact once, so I was legally obliged to self isolate for 10 days, although I tested negative. I suffer with PTSD from being in long term seclusion- I physically can't cope with being indoors for prolonged periods. I walked miles every day, albeit on country paths; did not see a single soul. 10 days indoors would break me- I am not sorry in the slightest. Hope you feel better soon. Xxx

Do it and also talk to your doctor about how you’re feeling with regards to your mental health