I spend at least an hour every day browsing and widening my net.
I find a job I quite like the look of, I convince myself I'd be happy there with the duties and benefits. At the end of the day i need a job but I want somewhere I am not absolutely miserable, I've done that before and never again.
Then I spend ages rewriting my CV, answering questionnaires, working out if it would be enough hours, the schedules would fit in our lives, round school hours and my husbands hours.
Check Glassdoor about interview techniques and if they're actually decent company to work for.
Then I wait, sometimes I get rejected quickly, sometimes it takes a few weeks, sometimes you just don't hear anything at all.
Then time to move on to the next one.
I have always been minimum wage retail, cleaning or telephone customer services. I left work in 2018 after having my one son, then had my other son quite quickly really.
Now youngest is 2 and a half and I'm ready to jump back into work. I've never had a "career" just jobs. I'd love something that I could potentially turn into a career.
My eldest Son is under paediatrician care, has an EHCP and needs extra help and I'm also trying to slowly retake my A levels (I quit them before finishing originally to get a job).
Just feeling really down about the process at the moment.
I haven't really got an AIBU, just wallowing a bit and misery does love company after all.