Day started early today,very early.Woke at 2am to the noise of my 11 year old son furiously banging the walls with his hands.Hes severely autistic and has severe learning disabilities, completely non verbal and the comprehensive of a 1 year old.Sat with him for the next 7 hours till he went to school.He doesnt sit still for the whole duration, he actually doesn't sit still for more than 2 minutes. Go back to bed for two hours and have one of those weird horrific nightmares you only get when you sleep during the day.during this crappy siesta my fridge has decided to pack it in,i did a Big shop yesterday of fresh produce.cannot afford a new fridge till end of January as this month has been more expensive than planned.
Had an argument with OH over nothing and everything,simply because we are both tired.
Bump into a friend ive made at an autism support group,her child and mine were diagnosed at same time.She is happy and glowing full of positivity, she tells me her son has learned to use the toilet on his own,the melatonin hes been on has just worked so well hes sleeping great,hes excited about Christmas and school has said his use of makaton and new speech has come on so much.Im delighted for her,i am,i love her child.today i just found it hard to hear.especially as my son hasnt made any progress, like none and every day its heartbreaking to watch him knowing he ll never be remotely independent and most likely end up in care.
On top of this my MIL phones to say that she and my FIL have discussed it and cant look after my son occasionally anymore as hes too difficult and they want to enjoy their lives.*they've had him 3 times since he was born. He visits them rarely with me.
Not been on a night out for 7 years,now been told an impending event that was planned has been cancelled.
Gas bill is in and its enormous,so now have to plan on not putting heat on.
On top of this i cant stop eating crap,sugar crap and my clothes aren't fitting.
Im tempted to have the bottle of wine tonight but dread being hungover and further depressed tomorrow.
Anyone else?