I’ve never really been close to my dad…he left my mum when I was 10 and he made it very obvious that I was in the way when I went to visit him and his slaggy tramp put a girlfriend.
He lives a few miles away yet hasn’t seen me or my DC for nearly 3 years now. He forgets their birthdays, never texts or calls to ask how any of us are and if I text him, i get one word responses.
Over the years I’ve realised he displays lots of narcissistic traits. He thinks he’s gods gift to women, he believes all women should be slim with long hair and perfect make up at all times. He’s rude to women that are overweight and has no problem commenting on peoples weight.
Over the years I’ve tried my best to maintain some sort of relationship with him. I’ve not found it easy because to be honest….I don’t like him.
A few days ago I was chatting to my mum and she let it slip that the only reason she got full custody of me was because she had to agree that she wouldn’t take any of the money he’d inherited from him. So basically, in my eyes he was more concerned about keeping his greedy paws on his money that he was about me.
I feel like I’ve had enough now. My DC wouldn’t know any different as they never see him or speak to him anyway. I just feel like I want to close that chapter and make it clear I’m not available to him whenever he’s got no better options. If someone were to ask me how I feel about not seeing my dad or how I feel that he quite obviously doesn’t give me a second thought, I’d say “I couldn’t care less…his loss”
But in reality it stings. Every girl wants their dad to love them.