Please help

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I'm freaking out. I've not slept. I've had the odd night of insomnia since DC2 was born but it's the worst it has been and I feel the panic getting overwhelming. I need to talk to someone. I have to look after 2 DCs on my own tomorrow on no sleep. What am I going to do? Am I heading for a mental breakdown? I am incapable of sleeping. What am I going to do? My children deserve better

Some medication is safe when breastfeeding, so don’t worry.

How old is your youngest?

I went to sleep at half four woke up at half ten. That's enough sleep right?

Yes just one sleepless night. A few nights with 3 or so hours wide awake in the night in the lead up to it (couldn't get back to sleep after the first feed) which I guess triggered the sleep anxiety. I worried I would soon not sleep at all and it was a self fulfilling prophecy. All I need to do is not obsess and hope it fixes itself quickly.

Baby is 12 weeks.

@easylikesundays sorry you had PND. Just a few days ago I ready 1 in 10 women get PND and was telling DH how happy I was and how glad I was I'd escaped it. Then today I can't stop crying, tears are streaming down my face constantly. So maybe that's what it is.

I'm feeling mild period pain and was hopeful maybe it was on its way and what's causing me to be so out of sorts but nothing yet. It would be so much easier if I knew it was just temporary hormones. That would help me calm down I think. But with DC1 I didn't have a period for 18 months, so quite unlikely at 3 months PP. Sigh.

Yes as a PP already said. You might not have to stop breastfeeding. I just wanted to let you know that is an option and if you are anything like I was at the time, I wanted you to know it is absolutely ok to stop for your own sanity.
Personally it is the lack of sleep and hormones that is adding to your anxiety. If at all possible, try to get as much sleep as possible and make sure you are eating well.
I was terrible when I was going through this. While I did not really question care for my baby, I did not look after myself, did not get enough sleep, was not eating too well and was constantly on automatic mode. Felt nothing during the day but just getting through. When I look back years later, I can still feel how anxious and emotional I was at the time.
I had a very hard time giving up breastfeeding, thought I was doing a huge disservice to my baby and they would suffer. It was a super hard decision to stop.
When I finally did stop, i realised i was being catastrophic, maybe due to getting some sleep finally but nothing was as bad as I imagined.
My point is if that is how you feel then know there is nothing wrong with stopping. It is good for your baby in the long run. I had no one tell me this and I wish I did as it would have saved a lot of heartache.
But if this is not how you feel, then of course there are other ways. Main thing is though you need plenty of rest, that is the root of all how you are feeling. I promise once you're able to get this rest somehow ( not a one off either), you will feel a whole lot better.
((hugs))