15 yo me would be astonished and probably wouldn’t trust me if I told her.
My teenage self never pictured herself ever making it past her teenage years and she definitely thought she would be miserable forever.
She would be shocked to find out she is gay and out and very happy (and quite successful in that department).
She probably would take a double take at the mirror because teenage me definitely neglected her appearance after being sexually assaulted a few times as she thought she needed to look bad/invisible to avoid assaults. She would be SHOCKED to see what I look like and dare wear now (unapologetically) and how I have reclaimed back my body/appearance and sexuality and very very proud of it I think, as that’s something she wasn’t brave enough to do.
She would be initially disappointed that I still work in the same/very similar field my mom works in as she had made herself a promise she wouldn’t have a life that resembled at all the one of her mother, but she would probably give me a high five and a seal of approvable once she had a quick look at my paycheck.
She would be amazed at all the adventures I have been on and countries I have lived in and would be shocked I learned to speak a few languages when I used to be so bad at English.
She would overall be over the moon with the life I am living now and what I look like and my ongoing/upcoming projects and plans. She would be a bit sad/disappointed that my relationship with my parents never got better and in fact got worse and would be shocked to find out the things I found out about them, but would be very proud of the fact that unlike my teenage years, I don’t let it bring me down and down the path of despair and depression and actually use it as a fuel to reach each and every goal.
My teenage self would genuinely not believe that this is who she has become and that she went from shy, awkward, not-confident meek girl, to a fierce, confident and independent woman who not only knows what she wants but also goes for it and fight for it and have no qualms telling people off and making herself respected.
My current self is often in disbelief of who I have become and so so grateful for how life turned out and I remind myself quite often how far I have come and how proud and grateful I need to be of the changes I have made.
I am curious what my current self will feel of my future self though (as I am currently mid/late 20’s)
as right now it doesn’t feel like it gets much better than that. So I am a bit scared it will be downhill from there!