I was prescribed fluoxetine about a year ago for depression. I'd experienced some really hard life events in the six months previous related to the pandemic and it all got too much. The medication helped me to feel better and more able to cope with daily life again, which was great. I started seeing a counsellor last month, but only had three sessions with him before he unexpectedly had to go off sick. I don't know when I'll be able to see him again.
As I said, the medication was for depression, but in the last four months or so I've begun to feel quite anxious. I think it's related to other people's expectations of me and the fear that I can't meet them. Part of that is connected to knowing my mental health isn't in top condition anyway, and because I've recently started a new job and a masters. I sometimes get panicky at work because I feel like I'm doing everything wrong and I'm letting my managers down or I'm going to get into trouble. On one occasion I was overwhelmed close to tears and had to take a few minutes out to calm down. With my masters I feel like I'm not doing enough work and that my lecturers will be cross with me. I get panicky before meeting with my supervisor and feel under such pressure to come up with good points in the meetings, when actually I feel pretty clueless as I'm just starting out!
Life just feels overwhelming at times and I feel like I just have to keep going. I'm the sort of person who takes pride in doing things well and I'm often seen by others as "the responsible one", so to be having issues managing things is doubly hard! Don't feel I really have anyone to talk to (apart from the counsellor whenever he's better, who I really like from the few sessions I've had with him). Not sure what to do, just know how I'm feeling isn't sustainable long term.