I don’t have a great relationship with my mum, it’s very hot and cold for various reasons over the years. She hasn’t made any effort with me in years, including during my pregnancy. Sometimes we get on well but this usually only lasts a few months maximum. I don’t particularly like her fiancé but if she’s happy I’m happy and I don’t really see him so it doesn’t matter what I think anyway.
Her wedding is mid February and I’m due to give birth mid January but I’m fairly sure I’ll be later than my due date (my due date changed at my 12 week appointment and the new date they gave me didn’t match my cycle tracking at all-which I had done religiously and was like clockwork). She’s bought me a bridesmaid dress that probably won’t fit because who knows what size I’ll be less than a month after giving birth?? And isn’t breast feeding friendly. I know I’ll feel self conscious and tired all day and I just want to be in my newborn bubble with my boyfriend before he goes back to work. She also wants me to leave my boyfriend and newborn and travel to the venue with her, and get ready at her house. It’s nice she wants to include me and I appreciate it but this is my first baby and I know what I’m like and know I won’t want to be away from him so young especially while breastfeeding. I’m also concerned about the amount of wedding guests who will inevitably want to touch/hold/get close to my baby, during flu season/covid, while he’s so young. I’m intending on keeping him really close to me and telling people no but I don’t want him to get sick.
I’m just worried about the whole thing really and wondered if anyone had some advice. It wouldn’t be so scary if it wasn’t winter and he wasn’t so young but I’m really on edge about the whole thing and not really wanting to go.