Long one, sorry!
Backstory. I don’t have friends. I did at school but we didn’t keep in touch. Then at jobs I had “colleague friends” but no call anytime/go out/meet for coffee friends. I’m 32 so have been friendless for a long while and mostly I’m alright with it/accepted it and have a “their loss” type attitude.
FF to DD1 starting school, there are a couple of mums that say hello to me and I try to strike up conversation but they all seem to have their own “people” that they always go straight to iyswim. DD does get invited to parties but the parents all seem to know/stick with each other and it’s very difficult to insert myself in. Again, not nice feeling but it’s only a couple minutes waiting/picking up from school.
I take DD2 to a baby sensory class and have for about 6 weeks. The mums are friendly and we all have group chit chat throughout. Last week I thought a few of the regulars appeared a bit more friendly with each other but I was late and sat in the last space so it was difficult to tell.
So FF to today at sensory class and it turns out the friendly regular mums have all exchanged numbers and been texting each other and went on a group walk. They were recruiting the newest mum into their group while I was packing my bits away at the other end. I have to admit that this time I do feel awful and I’ve come away wondering what’s wrong with me. I wish my “don’t give a fuck” attitude would come back!
So, AIBU/silly for feeling like this?