Please give me some advice and words of encouragement

[oldandscunnered]

I posted earlier that I have been suffering from a Kidney infection. I have been off week for nearly 2 weeks and have said I will go back tomorrow. My boss said "good." when I text him. I am a hard worker, have worked loads of overtime and haven't put it in, hardly take a lunch break and work late. I also worked from bed with two spinal fractures which were not discovered straight away. I was technically off 3 weeks and 1 day with this, mainly because I had a bit of a breakdown. I have had suicidal thoughts this year, mainly because of lack of support. I have explained all this to my boss. Tomorrow I am likely to get told that people have had to cover for me and that they have been great. He knows I feel really guilty when I'm off sick and I usually would at least try and work from home but I just couldn't this time. I'm dreading going in. Any advice please?

I’m assuming ‘find a new job with a nicer boss’ isn’t an option. So, in that case, you need to harden your heart.

If he says the other people who’ve covered for you have been great, enthusiastically agree that’s wonderful, and how great that the team is so supportive. Refuse to be baited and kill him with kindness.

NoSquirrels bit long in the tooth to look for something and I don''t want to travel far. That is such a good idea. I'm going to say that's great you got support as I was worried you would really struggle. No one else gets this treatment by the way, he just depends on me because if I'm not there he has to do my work.