Last week I developed a sore throat, fever, nausea, and tinnitus. It was my Dad's funeral on Friday so I rang my family who didn't want to rearrange the date and begged me not to give Track & Trace their details - they said that if Track & Trace contacted them, they wouldn't answer (two of them are unvaccinated). I couldn't face giving their names so I told myself I would probably be better by Friday and isolated at home too scared to take a test. Secretly, I hoped DH would take a test and settle the whole thing but I don't think he wanted to get involved.
Anyway, I took a test on Friday which was negative (as was DH's who had similar symptoms but less severe!) so so we went out and I told myself it was "just a cold".
I returned feeling so poorly, I struggled to breathe through coughing so much. I could barely get out of bed this morning and my lungs ache! I became scared and rang the out of hours who advised me to go to A&E. They confirmed I had a fever and said that the LTF tests aren't reliable. Well, I heard they had over 80% reliability and surely one of us would have tested positive? My friend who I saw the previous week, has had similar symptoms and is testing negative!
Anyway, whatever this thing is, I feel so guilty for potentially spreading it. I did feel better on Friday but now I feel worse.
Everyone seems to be poorly at the moment and a doctor on Twitter voiced their fear that there are new variants evading tests.
Anyway, the guilt has tainted this whole experience for me as I felt I couldn't give my father a proper send off. I'm also upset at my family and my own spinelessness.