Hi mn, there is alot that has happened over the past few years but this year has been the most stressful. This year - had another MC loss, emigrated (to the UK), friendship issues just to name a few. Early last year I had a late term loss and I think this is where things came undone for me. I have had alot of counselling and good support so I feel in that sense I am coping. However, within myself I have lost my way. I have become such a dependent person on my DH, I overthink everything to a point that I make myself ridden with anxiety. I have zero confidence in myself, I am just existing day to day. We have emigrated and my dd started school just before the summer term here. I feel so overwhelmed with school stuff, I am sitting here with anxiety dreading back to school next week. My dd is in a very academic prep school and its really out of my depth. My dd has made two friends, neither of which parents seem keen for playdates.
We had a parent event at school recently and I didn't sleep the night before, as I was so anxious about meeting the other parents. I am an introvert as well. I feel out of my depth, not knowing what the ettiquette is about anything. We went to a class party this weekend and it seems everyone else got the same type of gift, had their little groups, etc. Maybe these are petty things and its bigger in my head, but its really getting me down. I have a very supportive dh, just no close friends or family here and I am finding it so hard in a new country. This past week has been bliss as dh, dd and I were on leave/half term and I felt like my old self. Dreading everyone back to work and school next week. I dont know what has happened to me ?