Just curious, because I think I’m on the cusp, and have come out to remove the temptation.
At home in the flat with the baby, who finally naps nicely in the day, and downstairs are doing a complete renovation, the place is gutted, with workmen there daily. Last few days the power drill and sanders and some sort of massive hammer thing has started up. I feel like I’m some sort of bizarre sleep deprivation experiment, being up most of the night as well. The health visitor trilled ‘sleep when the baby sleeps!’ In a jolly sing song voice and when asked how she would sleep through a power drill vibrating underneath her said ‘if your body is tired enough, it’ll find a way!’
Not sure who I hated more in that moment, her or the builders.
Obviously there’s no drowning it out with white noise or earplugs, it’s way beyond that. I’m living above an actual building site.
I’ve come out to a coffee shop that I have no interest in being in simply so I don’t commit a violence, all I want to do is either cuddle my baby on the sofa while I watch American Horror Story, or nap myself, and neither of those things are available to me, so I’m sitting here with my third coffee, baby asleep in the pram and wondering if they’d make a ‘women who kill’ documentary about me or if it would just be too boring, suburban woman on maternity leave kills man with power drill in a fit of rage. I think at least I could plead insanity or diminished responsibility.
I am being lighthearted, please don’t tell me off for joking about murder, I’m not actually going to do it.