Some of you will know me! Got offered a permanent job verbally in March with a sum of agreed money after working very hard at a degree and gaining a 1st.
However the employer said i work on bank till i got said job. Over the summer I asked for bank work but he said he had none.
Got back after the summer and he'd got another candidate to do the bank work and offered her my job....
I was very anxious and made some mistakes in the 1st week...he then told me i couldn't have the permanent job because of said mistakes.
I saw him make the same mistakes regularly. I know i need to reflect on my errors but i ferl so defeated. This happens to me a lot to the point where when I start a new job I am terrified of getting managed out.
I am smart, punctual, polite, hard working but i do get anxious. Some on here have suggested i have ASD/ ADHD ...im going to look into it.I was bullied at school so perhaps that is an issue...i almost exoect bad treatment.
I just want to provide for my family and find my niche. I want to grow, develop and have a steady normal life.
Last Friday I felt like id been run over by a bus when the boss approached me. Still down now but have applied for 3 jobs and agency work.