I am being jealous and unreasonable

[Blueskies3]

I know I am being unfair and I feel awful.
My friend has just announced their second pregnancy. I have two children. I would really love to have a third, but it might not happen, it might not be for the best for the two kids we do have.
I had PND with my first and at 3 he was diagnosed (after quite a journey) with autism. He is doing well now (after lots of therapy).
I would also love to go back in time and know what I know now and hold my babies close.
I am so sad that the pregnancy, baby and even toddler stages are over.
I am unsure if I can really be there for my friend through this. I don't want to hear all about it, and I know that is selfish.

No logic to feelings and it sounds like you’ve had a rough time of it. Would it be an idea to talk to a therapist about it so you find a way to come to terms with your emotions? This friend won’t be the last person you know who has a baby and you’ll be lonely if you pull back from anyone who’s pregnant.

I don’t think it’s really so much about how we feel - it’s more about what we do with those feelings. Sometimes we will feel sad, angry, jealous etc. I think it’s about learning to manage those emotions before they manage us. You can’t help it if you feel a certain way. Just sort them out ASAP and don’t let them make you behave in a way you’ll regret.

If you had another baby, that one would grow up as well and then you'd be back to Square 1. And you can't carry on having babies forever. Unless of course you're married to a self employed baker in Morecambe and can afford 22 children!