I’m aware that this is very much a first world problem. I am happy enough in my current job and my future is not reliant on getting the one I have applied for.
But I just feel like my life is totally on hold. I feel like a traitor in my current job as I’m being very non-committed about some up coming opportunities (I’m not declining them, I’m just not going after them with as much vigour as I normally would).
I’m also worried about how it would change things (yes I know I’m probably jinxing it). It would put off starting a family for a few years at least. And we have just remortgaged for a 5 year term, maybe this wasn’t the best decision as the position I have applied for will be an hours commute.
Also interview anxiety is hitting me hard, I know interviews are held mid October and it’s getting close to the point where It will be too late to book a days AL. So I’ll be forced to come up with an excuse and possibly leave colleagues short. And I’ll need to get clothes for an interview and prep for it extensively.
I know there’s a lot worse positions to be in, but does anyone have any advice?
At the moment I am just acting as though I won’t get it and if I do I’ll have to work everything out.