I'm so bloody tired. I only work 24 hours a week but the early starts are killing me and having to work Saturday eats so much in to the weekend.
I have fucked up with my son majorly. He just has no interest in me. I was out all morning with my eldest at the hospital but when I came home there was no reaction from him. If his dad leaves the house or even the room for 10 minutes he tries to follow him and is so happy when he comes back.
I love my son so much but it breaks me that he doesn't care /notice if I'm there or not. It's the same if it's me doing nursery pick up, just no reaction.
I don't feel like a good mum as I didn't even realise DD2 was being bullied and I should have known.
I'm feeling like I'm running on empty all the time, tearful all the time. I'm not giving my best at work or home. I just feel like I'm letting my kids down all the time, letting my husband down all the time, letting work down all the time.
We're supposed to be moving soon. Well we're getting evicted and have nowhere to go but I can't even think about packing up as I just have no energy or motivation.
It's not really AIBU but more of a can anyone relate and how did you spread yourself evenly between work, kids and home?
I look at friends and family and really no one else seems to struggle the way I do.