Not sure where to post this, hopefully this is OK.
I dont know where to start so I'm sorry if this is long. These past 2.5 years have been absolutely horrendous and I feel like I'm reaching breaking point. So to give you the background:
When I found out I was pregnant with mine and DH's DS we had to give up our home and move in with in laws, as work only offered SMP which wouldnt cover our bills. Had DS and suffered terribly with PND which went undiagnosed for over a year. Ended up working from home when DS was 3 months old as felt I needed the escape. DS didnt sleep through until over a year old and ever then it was inconsistent. During all of this DH was signed off work for 8 months with a back injury, so was home but unable to do much with DS to help. Went back to work fulltime when DS was 9 months old, but after 1 month was when we had the first lockdown so back working from home fulltime and trying to care for DS too. DH is then made redundant but quickly secures a new job (luckily). He is then bullied and quits after 6 months.
During all of this we manage to get our own place. Still working from home but in and our of lockdown. Work keep piling more responsibilities on me and then I'm told that my job is going overseas and my position in the company is at risk. Been with the company for 5 years and dont know what yo do. Decided to take a job as a part-time cleaner to ensure some income and to care for DS more. In between all of this both mine and DH's cars need replacing with little to no money. End up taking out loans and are now bankrupt. DH and step-son contract Covid so had to isolate. DH ends up in hospital with it. My job isnt producing enough income so I have to go back fulltime to basically the same job with a different company which I swore I didnt want but took it because pay is good and it was the first thing offered. Now childcare is potentially an issue and feel like it's all falling on me.
I am on anti depressants but I just feel like I am drowning. I dread going to work and already looking for something new and want to go back to part time but money isnt enough and I just dont know what I want/need to do.
Please can i have some advice or experiences as feel like my head will explode 