I went for a CTG and scan today at 32 weeks, baby has been head down for the last few months (I'm having scans every 2 weeks due to a previous loss). Firstly at the CTG my baby fell asleep, the nurses said this was an issue so they asked me to try to wake him up, I tried the usual poking a bit, a glass of water, something sweet to eat - they even tried ringing a bell near my belly but he didn't wake up. They showed the results to my gyno who said they were ok but when I went in for my appt with him and asked about it, he said it's better when they are awake because a heartbeat that stays the same could mean the baby isn't getting what he needs (cue major anxiety from me having lost a pregancy at 19 weeks last year). He then did an ultrasound and was surprised that the baby was breech, he actually sounded really disappointed/frustrated. He said the baby doesn't have a lot of room now but maybe he will turn in the next few weeks, otherwise they will try to turn him or I'll have to have a cesearean.
I came away feeling really down because I'd felt like the baby had been head down for so long that everything was going well, I've been doing lots of exercises recommended for moving the baby into a good position.
I've only ever given birth once before, to my baby that had died and I really would like to have a natural birth if possible this time as I want to experience birth in a more positive way. I think I've realised this is quite important to me (but obviously if I need to have a caesarean for my baby to be ok I will do whatever I need to).
Plus I didn't feel very reassured by the nurses reaction to the CTG. I've emailed to see if I can have another CTG in the next day or so because I am anxious, but I don't know if I'm just been overly anxious/stressed about this? I have a lot of other stressful stuff going on in the background so maybe I am overreacting?
It doesn't help that my husband isn't allowed to come with me for my appointments due to corona and I live abroad so the whole conversation with the nurses was in a foreign language that I probably only half understood (my gyno speaks pretty good english though).