Agelikeafinebottleofblacktower ·
12/09/2021 19:14
I'm so torn.
I'm an unqualified NHS worker in a semi clinical role. My job is so stressful, there's so much to do and little help, all my colleagues end up staying late, working during annual leave, being essentially on call etc. I love what I do but it impacts on everything. If I take some time owing to sit in the park with my DC's I spend the whole time worrying about what be going on with my wards, whether the on call doctor will visit without me calling twenty times to try to locate them. I regularly stay up at night worrying about what I have or haven't done. My children just get the remnants of me in the evenings as I am emotionally done in.
I could earn 20p less an hour working nights at my local supermarket. I'm not at all suggesting this is easy but my best friend works in a similar role and listens to podcasts and stacks shelves, rotates stock, helps with online orders. She doesn't serve customers and says she never thinks about work when she leaves. She tells her boss she is not prepared to work any overtime so they don't ask her. It sounds like bliss.
My fear is that I will lose my pension. I will not be able to get back into it if I leave and miss it. I will not get the 'high' of genuinely helping a patient.
I have an interview tomorrow for the role and if, which isn't a given, they offer it to me I don't know what I would decide to do.