To think life can become horrendous when you’re on a downward spiral of binge /overeating?

[LBirch02]

If this thread helps just one person .. (etc etc)

Back in 2019 I was on an awful downward spiral of binge eating /overeating. I was close to 15 stone which gave me a BMI over 36.
This awful cycle left my mental health at the time in smithereens. I was barely bothered to even wash some days and was desperate to lose weight. Things changed when on one idle Friday - odd day to start i know - I decided enough was enough put my foot down and started a strict diet/ exercise programme losing 7 stone getting down to around 20 BMI.
It’s so hard to start though and you start berating yourself - or I did - for not being able to stick to anything.
My bags got searched in a supermarket- store staff apologised profusely afterwards but I admit with hindsight I looked like a scruffy overweight bag lady!!
I was struggling with very angry feelings at the time and compensating with hindsight behaving in a way that was. Emotionally immature to put it lightly.
I just wanted to vent how hard it is for people caught in a cycle of binge eating and it takes an extremely determined mentality to overcome it

Good post . Thank you . I know the feeling well. Glad you are where you want to be.

Thank you so much Sundaymorning . I’m glad it’s helped you - I really wanted to highlight how difficult it really is at the time

I was selfish as well at the time - I admit to saying I wasn’t able to meet people and the only reason was I wanted a few weeks’ dieting and weight loss behind me before I felt able to meet them! Of course this wouldn’t happen and I’d invariably let people down!!
Since being in control of my weight I’ve totally owned this and apologised to people and told them the real reason I felt I couldn’t meet them - I was selfish and with hindsight feel ashamed

@LBircIh02 thank you for your post! I need to lose weight so I start my IVF, I was on a good track but last month I took some meds that threw me off. I am trying to start again now, and I am, it's just so hard to remain determined sometimes. It's really nice to hear from someone that has been through all that.