Please tell me I'm wrong (might be triggering, sorry,don't read if feeling sensitive)

[RainAndGreyClouds]

My mum is in hospital. I saw her this evening. She's a bit worse but otherwise much the same as she has been. Don't want to give details in case outing.

On the way home from the hsopital I had an overwhelming feeling she will die tonight. I can't stop crying. I'm not ready for her to go. I've been googling to see if you can sense these things and freaked myself out. I don't think I'll sleep tonight. I'm in a state of panic.

Please please tell me I'm being silly and I've got it wrong. I don't know what to do. The nurses all seemed unbothered. Nothing is different. No one has said anything is imminent. Can't shake this feeling though :(

Thank you Tellmeagain and others :)

Ps.im sorry for your loss Tellmeagain

Just wanted to add to the hugs. It’s so hard when our parents become vulnerable. They’ve always been there (for those of us lucky enough to have had positive childhoods) and as children I guess we think they’re invincible, the ‘fixers’, the ones who are strong when we’re not. And then suddenly we’re reminded of their mortality and we’re a bit lost.
During my mom’s final days the person I most needed, who would always reassure me that things would be alright, was my mom.
I’ve rambled a bit there… just trying to echo pp’s that your emotions are natural

I get myself worked up over stuff like this too. Can’t you ring the main switch board and then ask to be put through to the ward and explain to them that you’re worried sick and just ask if they can give you some assurance that your mum is ok? Also, if the hospital thought your mum was going to die soon then surely they would have told you? She would be on “end of life care” , if they thought it was imminent? So try not to worry I know that’s hard but I’d definitely try and speak to the ward and just explain you’d like an update cos you’re feeling really anxious about your mum and need to know if she is ok x

If possible please go and stay with her I don’t want to upset you more so I won’t go into why I KNOW that you can 100% Sense these things but please go back if you can

The thing is, that for everyone like the poster above who says they absolutely know you can sense these things, there will be a million others (like me) who have had these overwhelmingly certain feelings of doom several times only for nothing to happen.

The feeling has nothing to do with sensing something, only with how anxious and vulnerable you’re feeling. Statistically there will be people who have ‘known’ and then something has happened, but that’s nothing to do with intuition.

You’re not being silly, she’s your mum and you are worried about her. It’s natural to be anxious and sometimes that anxiety runs riot.

My mum has been in and out of hospital for years with various conditions and I usually take it in my stride but I remember a couple of years ago I had an episode where I felt exactly like you. I was crying, trembling, nauseated, convinced it was the end. It was really, really awful but in the end she was absolutely fine. Be kind to yourself, I hope both you and your mum are feeling better soon

I feel a sense of dread a lot and nothing ever comes of it