I thought I had gotten over my DH (DP then) cheating on me, messaging other women, flirtatious behaviour. But, tonight I think I have realised that I haven't.
The last time he did anything 'wrong' was a week after our wedding, three years ago. It was just a flirtatious message to an acquaintance, nothing physically happened that I know of but there was a suggestion from her that he should be 'cheeky' and come and meet her. Just before our wedding there was an incident of going to a strip club and getting a private dance. Which I found out about a week after the wedding and was not something I would have been ok with.
A few years prior to that he slept with someone else, once maybe twice. While also sending inappropriate messages to someone I thought was a friend. These things were 8 years ago now. So a long time ago but it was heartbreaking and I worked hard to forgive and forget. I thought I was ok now.
He went out with a group of his friends today, he left at 12 and he still isn't back despite saying he'd be home by dinner time latest. No calls or texts. I tried ringing at dinner time.
It has brought up the old feeling I had of just not trusting him. I hate it. He is probably just enjoying time with the 'lads'.
AIBU to feel like this. I have no evidence that anything has happened that's untoward but I just feel like he's up to no good.