I am braving AIBU for the first time...
For nearly 20 years I have what I would call a sugar addiction. In particular, chocolate. It's normally the first thing I think about when I wake up to the last thing at night. I will go out of my way to get it, hide it, eat it. Suggest entire meals out when I don't even want to see people just because they have a good dessert menu.
I am beyond miserable. It is wrecking my life and my health. I have always gotten away with being a bit chubby but I've now tipped into fat, high blood pressure etc. I've detested the way I look since I was pre teen. The one thing that could have changed it easily would be me stopping eating chocolate, why on earth haven't I done it??
It's a running joke in my friends and family that I eat so much of it - endless themed bday presents and I want to cry with shame every time I receive one. I've tried hypnotism and CBT as well as trying to not eat the stuff. I literally don't know what's wrong with me. I eat when I'm happy, sad, stressed, whenever. I adore the taste of it.
This sounds like a joke writing it all down but sadly this has been my life for nearly 2 decades. I made my son very poorly by consuming so much sugar while I was pregnant with him yet the utter horror of that has still not stopped me. I live with a smoker who loves me but cannot compare my 'addiction' with a 'proper' addiction like cigarettes, drugs, alcohol etc.
I guess I am wondering if I am alone??? Is there anyone else who feels the same way? Or if there are people who think this is not an addiction then please I would like to hear your thoughts also.
YABU - no such thing as sugar addiction
YANBU - yes there is such a thing as sugar addiction
Sorry for the long read.