It’s funny how life teaches you lessons if you’re open enough to learn. Lately my ex has been trying to sneak back into my life. It’s like he could sense that I’ve finally moved on now he’s trying to reel me back in. unfortunately for him I’m too far gone now. But not because I’m angry or because I’ve met someone else.
Being the hopeless romantic I am , I fall hard and I trust easily and while that something about me that I love , it used to make getting over someone I love pretty hard. So I kept running back to him every time the beckon me and it was a ridiculous game I was playing but not anymore.
The other night as I lay in bed about to fall asleep my phone lit up with a text. Curiously I picked it up and to see who it was and it was him again, I had dated him for a while on and off and I was totally crazy over him! It has been over a 5 months I had talked to him and he was with someone else. I laid there in the dark staring at the ceiling with my phone pressed between my hands. I tried to reason with myself he was just being friendly and wanted to see how doing was but was I kidding! He’d never treated me as just a friend and it was the middle of the night. I knew this wasn’t a simple friendly text but I still laid there feeling unsure about what to do. That’s when my thought s somehow drifted off to a mental picture of me. A beautiful woman who makes honesty and grace a priority with a beautiful daughter, 2 cats, a small but beautiful apartment and exciting plans to finish grad school and take care of my daughter to my best. I have a beautiful life and I give it to myself because I love myself. A little voice in my head chimed in and said “I choose me “. So I put my phone down and decided from that moment on there was no going back. No more revisiting my past because I’m no longer that woman. I’m happy now and from now I choose me.