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I have a cronic pain condition (endometriosis). It affects me daily. I don't know how the pain will be one day till the next. I take routine and prescription painkillers daily, varying the amounts as needed.
I have been diagnosed for 20 years. I am currently waiting for my 8th op to reduce the pain. The ops work but the pain comes back.
I am very lucky to have been able to have 2 kids as a result of the surgery too.
My question is about dealing with cronic pain. I always carry on regardless. I work full time and have taken 1 day off in the last 4 years. I keep going doing everything that needs doing, working, cleaning, dealing with the kids etc. The last 4 days have been worse than usual.
I have just snapped (ok, shouted, for a while) at my other half. I just feel like I am on a short fuse today. I am tired, in pain and just a bit fed up. His response was that he would never snap at me or the kids no matter how he felt.
My response was that he has absolutely no idea what it is to live like this, and to just keep going regardless.
I don't see any point in taking time out, or time off work etc, it won't make the pain any better.
I just want to know if I am being unreasonable. How should I cope with this? Anyone else got any experience of a situation like this?
I feel shit for shouting at him, I really do. He is a great husband and father, pulls his weight etc. Just right now I want to hide and scream and cry and he doesn't understand. And I just want this feeling to go away. The pain I can cope with, the frustration and anger not so much clearly!
Anyone got any pearls of wisdom for me? I would really appreciate some advice X