I'm sorry. Not an AIBU but I just need a message or two to help me pull myself together.
I booked a train for me & my DS(4) which we will be catching in about an hour. He's never been on a train before and is so excited.
I booked because I can't drive and I feel so bad that we spend the weekends doing the same things so wanted to do something different and venture out (meeting DH after work).
I feel sick. I've got massive anxiety especially when it comes to the unknown / unusual / out of ordinary. I can't remember the last time I caught a train. I'm worried about missing it, getting on the wrong platform, not knowing where to go to show my ticket, I've booked myself a seat but it wouldn't let me book DS as he's under the age to pay so what if he doesn't have a seat, what if I'm sat next to someone, what if it's busy.
I'm so tired of anxiety stopping me from doing normal things and exhausted from overthinking. Please just settle my nerves. I know I'm completely ridiculous and irrational 😩 would just like to have a normal brain for just one day.