Had a bit of a breakdown a couple days ago and a friend came to see me late evening, I was a mess basically. Struggle with depression had been doing well but had a bit of a trigger at the weekend. Felt very embarrassed after the night and almost feels like it wasn’t me, like looking back at yourself when you’ve done something stupid while drunk (I hadn’t been drinking). We spoke a tiny bit over messages the morning after and she encouraged me to go to my therapist. After that Conversation I didn’t say anything and I didn’t hear from anyone (I had spoke to a couple of other friends about how bad I was feeling too) at all from yesterday lunchtime ish to this afternoon. I was feeling a bit down about this, irrationally I know, because I know it was probably a lot for them to cope with and they don’t really know what to do or say. But it felt like I’d opened up and then nobody wanted to speak to me because Of it - after people had reassured me I wasn’t a burden it made me feel I was -I don’t want to stress people out or cause anyone else to be miserable. Now the friend who was with me on the night messaged to ask how I am today and I’m just stuck I have no idea what to say I feel embarrassed again and just wish I could erase everyone’s memory of it all and be normal again. I don’t want pity or sympathy just my friends to be my friends. Is it weird and what do I say? I’m home alone and wish someone would just come over but I don’t think I can really ask anymore if anyone after they came so late the other night.