Drunken argument with boyfriend

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I'm so embarrassed. Went out last night with boyfriend and friends. I haven't drunk in a while but I ended up getting drunker than I thought.
Ended up starting an argument with boyfriend (who did nothing wrong).
I was happy all night up until I saw him laughing with a woman sitting next to him.
I remember him walking up to me a few minutes later and snapping at him about how he was with the girl.

He then walked away. I walked up to him 5 minutes later and apologised and he snapped that he was not going to be speaking to me about this and how I was pathetic for saying that to him. He then turned his back to me.
I was then say by myself at the end of the table and I felt myself get weepy so I went off to speak to my friend.
The argument then escalated that I was embarrassing him and that he can't stand paranoia and jealousy.

The thing is soberly, I'm not a jealous person at all, as in usually we have separate night outs, I'm usually on night outs with my friends and his with his. This was the first time in months we'd been out as a full group.
We're quite independent of each other.
I don't know what snapped in me.
He's fine with me this morning and laughing about it but I'm more angry at myself.
I've told him I'll never drink again and he's said maybe I shouldn't go out anymore with the group as a whole or at least not drink when we're with friends.

I just feel so embarrassed and I really do hate myself today

You've recognised you were in the wrong, you've apologised, your boyfriend seems over it so don't let it continue to get to you. How, realistically, is that going to help anyone? Just learn from it. Don't keep bringing it up with your boyfriend or over-apologising, just draw a line under it and move on.

I know I'll be slated for being typical mumsnet- but I think that if drinking alcohol changes your behaviour so much that you don't recognise yourself and your closest people are embarrassed of you- then you should give it up. It's not important to living or having fun and causes you problems. Your bf has accepted your apology and asked that you don't behave that way in front of friends again. Because it's embarrassing and impacting upon him.

My sister is like you. She's delightful. Drinking makes her a weepy argumentative twat. God knows why. But she keeps doing it, (only when we all go out dancing- and we all drink , but the rest of us don't act twattish) which leaves me questioning whether she's actually sorry for her behaviour? Because she's not changing the choices she makes that lead to it.

If you became a different person, a person you hated, every time you drank tea or ate peanuts, would you carry on drinking tea or eating peanuts? So why drink if it does this to you? Try six months without

While you shouldn't have said it, I don't think he covered himself in glory either. He called you pathetic, paranoid and embarrassing and turned his back on you after you'd apologised. And then the next day decides it funny, so mixed messages. I think he's milking his victim status, and is also wrong to be telling you what you should do in future. He is within his rights to tell you he won't accept you behaving that way towards him again, but not to tell you you can't go out in the group or drink again.

Perhaps both of you could reduce the amount you drink. Know your limits, don't get 'drunker than you thought' and then you can both be respectful.

Well well the other day there was a thread on here where the male said something unpleasant to the female whilst drunk and the overwhelming consensus was the true feelings come out when you are drunk. Interesting to know see it the other way I.e you didn't mean it, the only reason you said it was because you were drunk. Fwiw I do think alcohol changes your behaviour and perceptions so if he has accepted your apology move on and don't drink so much next time