I passed my test two and a half years ago, and as me and DH want to start a family it would be so much easier if I have a car. Especially to see my family who live outside our city and not rely on public transport or other people etc. With covid as well, the idea of being on public transport for an hour and a half to get to work when it's just a 25min car drive seems like a no brainer.
I had one refresher lesson which went really well and my instructor said I'm fine to drive so was feeling okay. Ever since I bought a car I'm absolutely terrified. I've had it a week and a half and managed to get out most days with it, furthest I've gone is 11 miles there and 11 miles back, but mostly just quick journeys of a few miles but I'm still scared.
What doesn't help is I learnt in a car with a higher engine, bought a 1litre as wanted a small car for living in a city and I keep stalling on hills or when I'm parked and have to start driving up a hill so it's made me more scared.
I know I need to keep doing it, I'm supposed to go see my mum tomorrow who lives 25miles away which will be my longest journey alone and I'm bricking it as have to go after I finish work at 4 so will be busy as well. I keep thinking to not do it but don't want to let her down as supposed to be going for dinner. I'm scared I'll crash and injure myself/someone else or damage a car or someone will crash into me and I'll panic. My heart is constantly pounding thinking about driving.
Any suggestions on how I can get over this fear snd any advice on hill starts with a small engine? I never had the hill start issue when learning 