Feel like a lazy mum, what’s wrong with me

[Newmama93]

Hi mummas, don’t know if anyone can shed some light on what could be going on with me but I was really enjoying parenting and in love with my little man, then we got locked down (in NSW) and have been for the past two months and some days I feel unsure whether I like parenting or what’s going on with me! Then the next week I’m elated and in love then week after I’m not sure and feeling so miserable
And bored. My baby is 4 and a half months old and we play all day in the house because I don’t have the energy to do anything, I don’t want to see anyone for walks. He’s also up every hour all through the night and only sleeps for 30 minutes in the day ever 2 hours...

Everyone I feel low,
Bored or miserable I then think do I love him?

It’s so hard at the moment I’m really struggling.

I don't have any advice really, but didn't want to read and run.

Lockdown is incredibly hard, I think we've all struggled with it, add into that not much sleep and already there are too massive things going on for you right now.

Don't be hard on your self, take one day at a time. It will get better ❤️‍🩹

I think anybody would feel bored with just a baby for company. You're not a bad or lazy mum; you're dealing with a situation that is incredibly challenging.

It could be exhaustion, or the start of PND brought on by a mix of factors. As difficult as it is you should try to get out every day. Do you get any help so you can catch up on sleep?

I will try, not really, when DH or Mum take DS I usually do housework.

Is PND treatable without medication?

I think you’ve identified the issue at the end of your first paragraph. You are chronically exhausted. Try to get some help from your HV or Australian equivalent and look for support from family and friends.

You may be depressed but getting some sustained sleep will do both of you a lot of good.

And yes, there are alternatives to medication, please do have a chat with your GP. Don’t despair, you aren’t lazy just knackered and living in a time with difficulties that haven’t been experienced before.

You just sound tired - do whatever you need to do to get through the day. Your baby won't care.

I vividly remember the sleep deprivation, it is terrible.

Sleep deprivation is used as a torture device so its no wonder you feel the way you do. Stay away from Instagram, and do what you need to survive. It's little comfort when you are going through it but this won't last forever.