To not really ‘Feel’ anything?

[Theninetieswerethepeak]

Is this depression?

Sure I’ve had depression when younger or at points in my life, but didn’t take anything and it seemed to go after a while.
I’ve noticed that I don’t really feel anything recently, not much joy or excitement, equally not depressed as such..I cry sometimes but not really out of sadness, more frustration at long days with toddler Dd or tiredness.
It’s lovely and hot where we are, I always used to wake and go outside early and feel good, a freshness..I feel nothing when I do that now. It’s like I’m looking back into the past of a very different life and person
Anyone ever have this?

I’ve had something similar to this during lockdown. A kind of numbness of feeling of being suspended / on mute / in a mental hibernation. I think it is a kind of depression, like being switched off a bit, functioning on a more basic / less demanding level.

@PippiStocking Yes I wondered if was pandemic related, but everything’s open and everyone about and I’m not trapped in anymore 🤷🏻‍♀️

[quote Theninetieswerethepeak]@PippiStocking Yes I wondered if was pandemic related, but everything’s open and everyone about and I’m not trapped in anymore 🤷🏻‍♀️[/quote]
Yeah I’ve found it weird since lockdown ended and in some ways felt worse – like everything had been on hold until lockdown was lifted, and then it was, and nothing really changed. Which then felt even more depressing as that was supposed to be the thing to look forward to! It’s been a long time since life has been ‘normal’ and in some ways I feel like I’m starting from scratch again.

I think there has been a lot of uncertainty for the last 18 months as well, and in some ways it is easier remaining in lockdown for a prolonged period than adjusting to going in and out of it (like last year). So I feel aware of not really launching myself fully back into ‘life’ yet as it doesn’t feel certain that it won’t change again soon, and I’ll have to go through the whole process of adapting to lockdown life again.