I'm so lost I don't know whether I'm overreacting/reaching or whether I'm being over emotional especially since this is my first period since having a baby 8 weeks ago. This is the first serious relationship I've been in, serious in that we have a child together after only being together for a year (technically) and serious in that he's the first person I've loved in this way.
As I lay here typing this we have our backs turned to each other in bed, this is the norm. He plays Xbox/is on his phone all day/night in the front room (unless he's at work, which he isn't at the moment on holiday) and I'm in the bedroom with dd, wherein he will come in occasionally to see her. We interact here and there but it's minimal. And then he comes into the bedroom at 2 am where he will say barely two words and then get into bed with his back turned against me (and on top of the duvet with me under it currently). This lack of physical affection can go on for weeks, unless I initiate, which I always do first. Almost everytime without a doubt his reciprocation feels almost forced or very unenthusiastic.
I know it's selfish and needy but I just want to hear him say he misses me like I say I miss him. And to touch me and hug me and kiss me randomly. I want him to want to spend time with me as much as I want to spend time with him. Just today I came back home excited to tell him I missed him and kiss him after staying at my mums with dd for the night. Instead I come home to him on the Xbox with 0 acknowledgement. I said hi which he may have not heard, but no greeting anyway. I then asked if he was angry to which he replied "what? I'm angry because my attention is not on you?"
Maybe I just needed to vent and write it out to get over it, but I also want to know, AIBU? Am I imagining this situation to be worse and am I just not used to being in a relationship this serious