Been feeling particularly low with life right now. Relationship problems, suffering with pnd and post traumatic birth, sick relative, recently lost my family home, and just seen my past fwbs pop up on my friends snaps. There he is in all his glory having a great time in london whilst I'm in bed at 10 in the hopes of getting a 4 hours stretch of sleep if I'm lucky. He looks to be living life. I know it cake all be deceiving but all our old college friends are there. He is smiling and happy and that of all things has toppled me.
He was horrible to me and was constantly using me as the other woman when he was meant to be content and settled. He is still with this girlfriend but he reached out to me only last year when I was pregnant! Our mutual good friend knows this but she is there and presumably (as she is best friends with his girlfriend) they are still together. How even though he still tried it with me?! I know life is unfair but why is he so goddamn happy when he was such a spiteful person. Why is my life crumbling around me. I'm just angry and need to vent sorry. I don't wish ill on anyone. It just rubs salt into my wound. What happened to karma? All I try to do is be good and do good. When will life finally give and I can be happy too. where is my happiness? I dont want to sound ungrateful either I love and ask grateful for dc but other than that thats all I've really got going good for me at the moment. I'm only in my early twenties and everything is so bleak.....