My sister wants me to go to her party in a few days, and I don't want to go. I am depressed and won't know anyone there.
Our dad died last week, his funeral isn't for a couple more weeks. Our baby brother died a year ago.
I haven't cried at all, but feel empty...numb. I have become increasingly anxious, increasingly worried about my DC.
Dsis has said that the people who she's invited aren't actually her friends as much as acquaintances, people who are "connected", which she thinks would be good for me 
She also said "they won't care what you look like, unlike my best friends, in fact a couple of them look scruffy". I kind of gingerly felt between my shoulder blades after she said that, but accept that right now I am over sensitive (my threads on here show I am slowly unravelling).
She laid emotional blackmail on me, saying that dad was really excited about her party and wanted everybody there. This doesn't make sense, as I've never really been invited to her parties before, Dbo was never invited when alive. There is only mum and me left.
Mum doesn't want to go. She is a frail, elderly woman, who has just lost her husband of 53 years, she's not in the frame of mind to go and meet a load of new people. Dsis is going to take three dogs to mum's and leave in a cage so they don't bark at her house. I expect mum will have to walk/feed them, so going would be difficult anyway. It's annoyed me as mum has two of her own dogs that need to be kept separate as they fight, so doesn't need additional ones.
I love Dsis, and haven't been able to say no as she laid on the 'be good for you' spiel, also she said that she feels down too, but is still doing it so I should. Not entirely sure it's the same as she knows the people, I don't. I do have MH issues which has always made me less sociable than her anyway and I've always found small talk difficult. Right now I'm trying to process my feelings, but I just feel an emotional block and feel incredibly down.