I'll try keep it short. Someone I got very close too has recently come back. He went away sorted himself and has reappeared. Opened up and apologised. Told me how much I mean to him.
When we fell in love last year things were complex. I was recently separated from my children's dad. We were still living together but apart. The guy I met was recently sober and on his first year to recovery. He was lovely and we shared quite a few months of closeness
We fell out way back in March. It was him that couldn't handle a tiny little blip and he blew off and walked away. Probably his recovery as things were definitely over reacted too. He broke my heart so to speak. But I got on with things. He reached out after a few weeks but after a couple of days the issues we had had were brought up by me and he again couldn't handle it. We had a few weeks of being friends but I found out that whilst we had stopped talking he had met someone online and they had been having sex. She told me all. She was a nice woman. Felt bad to have not known about me and him. But she said he didn't ever show or suggest love. She said neither of them were in love and she didn't want him as anything as he had told her he didn't want a relationship and she didn't feel he was right for her and her family. So she saw it as a few weekends of sex and now a friendship.
3 days ago he sent me a message. He said he really would love to talk and he understood if I didn't want too. So we talked for a couple of hours and for the first time in his life he opened up. Apologised. Told me he was struggling so much with us not being in each others lives. He said he tried but never could forget how close we were and he missed me so much. He said he was stubborn. Said he knows he's not easy. But he said he's always felt so comfortable around me and he still loves me. He said he doesn't want to waste anymore time and for a few weeks now he said he's been so afraid of loosing me for good and he was afraid of me telling him where to go.
I was shocked at how he opened up. Its big stuff for him and I do believe him. We shared such a good bond but his depression and things used to get the better of him and basically on the good days he's like a soul mate. But on his low days he can struggle to be the person I love.
Anyway he asked me out yesterday. Said he wanted me to finally be his girlfriend and he wants to make me happy and he just knows there's nobody else he wants.
But when I asked him if there had been anyone else whilst we were apart he said no. Nobody. But the lady is still his Facebook friend and liked his photo this morning. I know she's slept with him and I know he told her he didn't want a relationship with her. So they know where they are at. But they do seem to have a bond and I don't like it. Mainly because he isn't prepared to tell me the truth.
What would you do? When I called her he knew someone had contacted her and he actually asked me if it was me. But I said no and she kindly agreed to keep it to herself that I had asked. But I feel sure he must know it was me. ..we were not together at that point so he's not cheated on me. But he's reluctant for me to know. But that's just lying isn't it?