To think I can’t take anymore

[Hg176]

Over the last 8 months, Ive lost three family members to COVID and a close friend to suicide.

I feel like running to the top of a mountain and just screaming with grief. Know a lot of other people have had a rough year too but just don’t know how much more I can take. Not really an AIBU but more I needed to get it out!

@Hg176 I’m so, so sorry xx

I lost both my grandparents within 62 days of each other so I know how you feel 😔 Try take each day as it comes and it will get easier ❤️

I'm so sorry. I wish I knew what to say. ❤

It's very shit! Scream away and a hand hold

Know that a stranger is thinking of you tonight. I would give you a hug if I could.

Just gone for a walk near my house and am just sitting on a park bench just bawling by myself. Hopefully no one sees me and reports the mad woman in the morning park wailing!

No wonder you’re feeling overwhelmed. Can you access some counselling?

I’m so sorry for your losses OP 💐

I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through. My DD lost her best friend, aged 24, from covid, just at the start of this pandemic. I have my fingers crossed that DD will be able to get on with her life soon. She is devasted TBH. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you too 🤞xx

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You're in my thoughts op - I'm so very sorry

@Hg176 I'm so sorry for your losses.that's a huge load of grief and pain to process.

I had multiple losses in 2016 and it totally floored me for a fairly long time. The phenomenon of 'cumulative grief' kicks in, making it all so hard to handle.

I think your should cry and sob and wail as much as you need to. It may provide some relief, and at least will release some stress.

💐 and virtual hugs.

I'm so sorry to hear what you've been through. I second the people who have suggested counselling. It must be so hard for you to comprehend especially if you were close to them all.
Take good care of yourself. I hope you have good people around you in real life who can also support you.

Thank you mumsnetters. I didn’t want to just ghost the thread, so wanted to say I appreciated all your kindness.

I do have a network IRL who have been amazing but I’ve just tried to hold it all together for them. Going to get some counselling to help with the grief xx

@Hg176 that's good to hear. Wishing you peace 💐