To be gutted about summer

[Millionnewnames]

We were supposed to have moved into our new home. Other people’s incompetence has meant that instead of enjoying a huge garden and the biggest paddling pool I could have bought we are in this awful, hot , hideous flat . It’s one of the countries most awful towns and there’s literally nowhere nice to go that isn’t packed. I can’t book another break as I’m having a big operation Tuesday . So I’m stuck , hot and miserable with the 3year old from hell and his father who has merrily decided to take a few weeks off work to ‘help ‘ me. We are close to murdering each other. I feel guilty as he’s the one with money and has spent a fortune on private healthcare for me and treated us to so many nice things this year . But I’m so hot , angry and stressed from being in this awful flat all the time.it’s my 12th home and so much hotter than any house I’ve ever had , must be the fact that it’s a concrete prison block special from the 70s. I don’t have any friends in this area and only moved here as an emergency/ stop gap so haven’t bothered making any. I’m not social anyway much prefer to be alone and all my hobbies are solo things. My family are all a bit odd and none of them would ever look after my son as they ‘aren’t children people ‘ so I’m dreading the coming weeks without a break from my hyper , non sleeping, aggressive child I just know DP and I will be at each other’s throats. Ds usually does 4 long days at nursery and even then I struggle a bit. Shut for the summer now I’ve booked all the holiday summer camps I can but they didn’t have many days left by the time I realized we were going to be stuck in this area and not at our new place. Can’t stop crying. I’m Ill and hormonal and exhausted by life and I genuinely don’t think I can do this ! second op in September and DS hasn’t got a school place so may well be at home for that term too.. my mother invited us to use her colossal half acre garden nearby but she still lives in my family home from growing up and it’s full of awful memories. I always feel strange if I go there. Besides , she’s weird and my sons scared of her. I could murder the woman who screwed up my house move. I’m scared of dying and this being the last shitty summer my child removers with me, in a bloody concrete box , crying, bickering and us all staring a screens all day

I don’t want to just read and run but it’s hard to know what to say to help!
Sorry to hear of op’ and that you’re feeling so miserable.
The huge change of plans sounds dreadful.
As the weather is so lovely and you can be outside your Mum’s garden sounds probably the best option. Maybe picnic in garden to avoid the house - you can say it’s to make it fun/different for DS.
This to shall pass - and repeat!! 🍀🍀🍀

One small practical suggestion, which you may have already considered - if there's money to spare maybe get an air conditioner? (Although trying to get them in a heat wave is like finding bog roll at the start of a pandemic.)

A fab with a basin of water and ice

Thinking of you
That sucks

Couldn't your DH take your son round to your Mother's, or out for a bit? Lidl have had hand held fans in for £10, I think the likes of B&M have them as well. If a tabletop/standing fan is impractical.

Has he not got a school place because of the move? That can happen quickly once you know were you'll be.

Dp and mother dont like each other at all. The invite was for me but I really don’t fancy it . We’ve got fans. Tried giving DS water to play with but he’s naughty and will just pour it out and ruin the floors. DD has a garden but she’s young and works nights so I can’t be round there making noise. Yep DS had no offer of school place at all. He’s partially deaf and has a receptive speech age of 2.5. He’s also the size of a 6 year old and really stubborn. I can’t see the local posh primaries falling over themselves to offer him a place. I’m really concerned about that. I have little faith in the system because I had to fight tooth and nail for my daughter for everything. I’m old and tired and about ready to give up on life and having another child and starting it all again was a bloody terrible idea. I think we are both full of regret . Obviously a decent home would dramatically ease the suffering. If I ever get there.