I may be being unreasonable here and it may be a personal expirence but all my life I've suffered from mental health issues, possibly a personality disorder, it was bad in my teenage years and I was in an abusive relationship from 14-18 years old, I wasnt attending college, I was withdrawn and nothing was ever done, college just wrote me off. In my adult life when things got really bad, I'd go to the doctor who would prescribe anti depressants and that's it, they never worked but I didn't really notice how bad things were until I got pregnant. I requested a c section due to previous rape trauma and I had to fight all the way through my pregnancy to get one, one was finally granted at 37 weeks which gave me 2 weeks to prepare and all through those 37 weeks I was having nightmares, panic attacks etc but apparently this is normal. A month after my baby was born, my dad passed away after a short illness, my husband left, my granddad died and my mum needs support for additional needs, I spoke to my health visitor about all of this and how it's affecting me (I don't sleep, I get about 2-4 hours despite my baby sleeping 12 hours) and she said I wouldn't qualify speaking to the perinatal team and to speak to the GP and do a self referral, GP offered anti depressants and I have yet to hear back from the self referral. I just feel so helpless and next month I'm back at work, working 10 hours everyday and I don't know how I'm going to cope, I truly understand why people take their own lives.
Sorry for the rant, I just needed to write it down.